After months of waiting and wondering, WebMD has finally posted all four of the My Life With RA segments featuring yours truly. Though all of it was filmed over the span of about 24 hours, it was divided up into four segments titled Single Gal With RA, Navigating the Dating Scene with RA, City Living with RA, and the rather dramatic sounding finale, My Invisible Pain.
I have to admit that it is a little weird watching myself. I am not above feeling self conscious and nit picky about my appearance, even when it's for a good cause. If only the series could have been filmed, oh say, after I had started Weight Watchers. I'm a good ten pounds lighter now than I was then, and silly or not, I cringed a few times, particularly at some of the clips that caught me at rather unflattering angles. (See for example, the clip of me opening a wine bottle, where it looks like my second chin is going to explode and take over my entire face, or possibly the world, at any moment. And just in case seeing me from that angle once wasn't enough, they replay that clip in slow motion just to make sure everyone gets a good glimpse of the bulbous mass beneath my chin. ick.)
But, all vanity aside, I feel pretty good about how they turned out. It's a little bit funny that I no longer live in New York; I felt a twinge of nostalgia at seeing the city and particularly my old apartment captured on film. A lot of stuff went down in that place. Watching myself describe what things were like at their worst brought up a lot of different emotions and memories, but it also made me realize how much better I am now. I am coming up on the two year anniversary of my diagnosis, and it has been a crazy journey over these past two years. Who could have known how so many things would change in a relatively short amount of time, all things considered?
Thanks to everyone has written in with your comments about the series. It's pretty cool, and I'm glad that I got to participate in it. I'll definitely be tuning in to RA TV to see what else they have in store.