Dear New York City,
This is a very hard letter to write. I admit that I've been putting it off for a little while, even though I knew it was inevitable. You might have noticed that I've been a little quiet and withdrawn lately, and the time has come to tell you why.
These last six and a half years have been amazing - really, truly amazing. We've seen each other through some hard times (RA, break ups, the economic downturn), some really good times (a million amazing meals, fantastic art and unforgettable friends), and everything in between. I know I haven't always been there for you, and you haven't always made it easy to love you, nonetheless, I do. I really, really do.
But that being said, it's time for me to leave. I know in the past, you've heard me threaten to leave you before and even dream about how great other cities might be. And I know that in the end, I always stayed. But this time is different. Even though things have been really great between us lately, there's just no denying that I'm ready for a change- a new challenge, a new start. Six and half years is a long time- I was just a healthy, young girl of 23 when I first moved here, but now I'm a grown woman of 30 with a complicated life. I have different needs now, and even though I really, truly wish that you could give me what I need, I think we both know that that's not going to happen, at least not now.
So next month, I'm going to go. I'm heading to a new town: Baltimore. You might have heard of it. It's not as big and glamorous as you. It hasn't been in as many movies or TV shows. It doesn't hang out with tons of celebrities like you do, and it doesn't stay up all night, every night doing a million crazy things. But it's a really cool place, too, with tons of great food, history and a beautiful harbor. And it's going to give me some things you never could, like financial stability, a big apartment with a bathtub, and a calmer life. I know, I know, I love all the crazy things we have done together, but I really think this is the best thing for me now even though it will be heartbreaking to leave you behind. I promise, I'll still come and visit. I really hope we can remain in each others lives. And who knows, maybe I'll even end up back here one day.
But for now, I'm heading to Charm City to start a new job and a new life. It's going to mean new doctors, new friends, learning to drive again and a whole host of other surprises, I'm sure. I know I'll have a lot more time to take care of myself and think about my needs for a change. I might finally learn to tango or work on my book. Maybe I'll even find love again- who knows? It feels like just about anything is possible!
I really hope that you'll be happy for me. I promise I'll stay in touch. Thanks for everything you have given me- I wouldn't be who I am without you. Well, I guess this is it. Wish me luck!